| Losing a great friend |
[Nov. 30th, 2009|01:54 am] |
Elena Alcaraz who I met through David Amador, was the first girout of every girl I knew that would go abo and beyond for me. Recently, her and I got into an argument and I said "God will make your enemies your foot stool" to Elena because Iasked her if I could borrow money to take the bus to work. She and I were not on good terms since september although in October I thought our issues were squashed but it was a lie overall. She cut me loose again after she had promised me she would not. I wanteed to yell at her for misleading me. I feel used, abused, and betrayed by her. This is the end of my story with Elena Alcaraz. |
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| Update |
[Nov. 19th, 2009|02:03 am] |
1. Started working at Safeway. Still employed at Roundtable pizza too with only one day a week and four hours.
2. Applied to Blockbuster. Had a phone interview with the district manager yesterday. I should receive a phone call on monday. I hope I get that job so I can put in my two weeks notice to Roundtable.
3. Against all odds, I'm grateful to be working again despite the struggle. |
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[Oct. 24th, 2009|12:31 am] |
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I have an interview tomorrow at roundtable's pizza. I praying that goes well. I feel some of my friends are avoiding me. Then again, it's probably good for me though. Maybe I'm having a false intuition. I just get these painful stomach feelings that its true. I would confront them but that will oonly start problems and I'll end up being the bad guy. It sucks how you want to handle situations but you have to be careful because anyone will take the chance and flip the script on you. Life's a bitch! |
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| The fall of Rodney Gerald Amey Jr. |
[Oct. 17th, 2009|12:13 am] |
Five months with no job. I was fired from the marriott due to poor performance. When I was under investigation, my ex-managers did not find anything Ahmad Barakzai, manager of the housekeeping department, said in his report about me. Should I have taken action against this? Yes but I walked away from it because at my old job Target, I yelled to the top of my lungs at a manager for assuming I was not working even though there were cameras watching my every move. I did not want to repeat the same mistake twice at the marriott. I am eligible for rehire but it will take six months and even then, with the managers knowing each other since its a small world, I would have a 2% chance of being rehired at any marriott hotel. With two weeks left of this month, I'm out of options. I looked into shelters and that seems to be the only way for me to go on or its the streets I go for the rest of my life. I would have at Barnes and nobles but my old landlord did not tell me because he wanted me to move since I refused to pay for the carpet damages even though I had placed a security deposit for the amount the damages cost. This is one of my greatest trials and greatest fears becoming a reality. I thought of killing myself since I suffered so much. I asked my friends that I know if they went through this. I knew I was wasting my breath asking them the question, still I was curious. These two weeks will determine what will happen. If by next month, I don't post anything, then I'll be living in a shelter or homeless. As I said, I'm expecting the worse right now. |
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| Tough decisions |
[Oct. 13th, 2009|05:38 am] |
For the past several months, Elena and I have been arguing like a couple. We are best friends and I'm the reason why things are the way they are. I had deep feelings that I should have discarded when I renewed my friendship with her, but I could not get the thought of my own best friend cutting me loose from her. We both made a promise to each other and she broken it. I know men are taught to surppress their emotions but in my opinion, how are you going to express it if you feel hurt. If something is bothering me, I'm not going to fake being ok. I stepped forward to talk to my best friend after we took a break for two weeks. If I did not call her it would have gone on longer. I can tell she is still mad at me but I don't want to ask her if she is because it will create arguments and I don't want to argue with her anymore. Our friendship will never be the same because of what I done but I don't want to lose her again. I don't know if I should try to do the best I can to show her that I care about our friendship or just accept the reality that our friendship is ruined? It takes two to tangle but I get the feeling that she does not want me to talk to her anymore. It seems easy to solve the issue but she wants things to be her way and if I try to come up with some ideas, she does not listen cad cuts me off from talking. My tolerance for her is high. I never had a high tolerance for someone in my life before. |
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| A guide to my problems with my bestfriend |
[Oct. 4th, 2009|03:03 am] |
1. Avoid repeats: If you find you're fighting about the same thing over and over again, your heated words aren't effective, no matter how many times you say them. Find a new method. It might mean that you have to compromise or see a professional mediator (like a religious official or therapist).
2. Be open-minded: As hard as it sounds, put yourself in your mate's shoes to consider his point of view. Can you empathize at all? Try to. And explain yourself so he can do the same.
3. Listen: Don't cut each other off. The best way to get the most out of an argument is to really hear what the other person is saying and to try to figure out where she's coming from. The only way to do that is to stop thinking about how pissed off you are and to listen. So don't plan the next point you're going to make; try to learn more about the cause of this tiff. Oh, and keep your voice down. Everything sounds and seems much worse when it's loud.
4. Remember the real point: As much as you want to be right the purpose of argument is to learn more about your partner and what you need from each other. Try to find a compromise so neither of you has to"win" (unless one of you really screwed up). That way, the real point of this disagreement is fighting for your relationship.
5. And remember: It takes two to tango, so keep in mind that no matter how you slice it you're half the problem. But if you talk to each other openly and with respect, you'll quickly kiss and make up.
More from MSN Lifestyle Site Search: Get more content on how to kiss and make up.
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Every now and then, msn has some good advice. |
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[Oct. 1st, 2009|11:33 pm] |
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1. I've moved to north richmond.
2. I'm still looking for work.
3. Its feels good to live close to family even though we might butt heads at times.
4. Keeping a postive attitude about things. |
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| Two weeks left |
[Aug. 19th, 2009|03:44 pm] |
Time lies so quick. I can't wait to move out. No weird mormon family. Just to clarify, I do not dislike them, it's just the family I'm staying with is weird and annoying. There are too many things to write about them so I'll just leave it alone. I already packed my things up. I'm just finishing off the food before it expires. Thats all for now. |
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| Sick |
[Aug. 14th, 2009|04:52 pm] |
If there is one thing I dislike, is when people cough and sneeze on the library computers. I need to get some money and buy some hand sanitizer. In other news, my step-mom needs to learn how to use spell check. Half the stuff she sends me I have to decipher. |
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| Alternative contacts |
[Aug. 7th, 2009|05:01 pm] |
Since my phone has been off for the past three months and counting, I've been using twitter, facebook and AIM to keep in touch with people. Yet, from time to time, I some say, "Sign up for a myspace account" or get you phone turned back on. Just for those who have not heard, I will update you.
1. I was fired from the marriott on June 22, 2009 on Monday.
2. I have given my last paycheck which was $365.00 dollars to my landlord to pay rent. My friend Shawn gave me $60 dollars to pay the rest. Thanks Shawn :-)
3. Ever since June 22 2009, I've been looking for jobs left and right. Ric helped me put together a resume.
4. I still have yet to find a job.
So there you have it. Believe me when I say how much it SUCKS for my phone not being on because I can't find out if jobs contacted me for an interview, friends calling or family. I have three different e-mails that I use and check everyday. Here they are and you may feel free to contact me if needed be.
gundamwing2003@hotmail.com
rodney_amey@yahoo.com
rodney.amey@gmail.com
Use which ever is convenient. I use AIM every other 2-3 days of the week. I use twitter everyday. If you have a facebook and need to reach me, look me up by my first and last name. Rodney Amey. Simple.
I will get a myspac account soon but for now, I need to use what I have and take advantage of it. Have a good weekend too ;-) |
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| Blog 3: Preparing to move back to Richmond |
[Aug. 5th, 2009|03:12 pm] |
Even though its been a week, after the argument I had with my landlord, I decided to move back to richmond. I have my reasons and that is all there is. I'll be glad to visit fremont again since I know my wy around the area. I do not have much to pack since I did not unpack much in the first place. I had some good times and bad but those are lessons I can take with me. |
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| Blog 2: Dream Journal |
[Aug. 3rd, 2009|04:50 pm] |
Lately, I've been having weird dreams and I was advised to keep a journal and write them down if I had a dreams. I tried to figure out what some meant. There are still some that I have not sloved yet. I'm not worried but things happen for a reason. One of my dreams I had invovled my friends. I had arranged to meet them for lunch. As I was walking, the ground collasped. Lava and fire came from the ground. I jumped to avoid it. After I recovered from the collisoon, there was a dark figure that stood before me. It pointed at me and turned its back, suddenly it tured around and threw a dark ball toward me and knocked me back. I woke up. I realized the dark figure in my dream represented the negativity in myself. It pushed me back since I tried to change myself from being negative. I had the same dream but I solved it and confronted the dark figure. It tried to tell me that its pointless changing what I've become. I asked it "Why do you prevent me from progressing?" It said "You bitterness and anger keep me growing. Your bestfriend notice you changed since you and her where not friends anymore. You don't realize it but you bitterness and anger are you greatest weapons in life." After I heard it's answers, I walked to it and said "You're nothing but a leech." It grabed my arm and I slammed it to the ground. I asked for its true identity and it was myself. like looking through a mirror that has your anger traped inside. I told it "I'm in conrol and you're just a tool." It disappeared and I woke up. I over came my trial. |
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| Blog 1: Deep feelings of myself |
[Jul. 28th, 2009|06:21 pm] |
Its bad that I forget I have a LJ. I hardly update too. I'm still looking for a job, posting resumes online and in person to various places. I feel cramped at the house since I do much without money. My phone is turned off so I;ve been e-mailing family and friends whenever I can. I miss a lot of people now but I'm still keeping a calm mind. There are things I have not done that I want to do or accomplish like having enough money to pay bills and continue to go to school after being out of school for seven years. There are times where I want to go to Sanfrancisco to take a walk to the pier, or somewhere I never been. I still do not have a car but at this moment, I'm glad. I'm slowly losing weight due to walking to the library everyday. I miss my family and friends (old and new). I've changed over the years but its kind off bad due to my bestfriend cutting me loose two years ago. I never knew that could have such a impact on me. I lost myself during that time and I'm "putting the pieces back together. It's hard, but I'll do what I can to make it right. |
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| No job. Seriously. |
[Jul. 1st, 2009|05:31 pm] |
The newark courtyard marriott fired me due to the following reason
1. I was not greeting guest as they walked by the front desk (while on cell phones).
2. A guest asked if we sold advil and I "pointed and to the market and told the guest to go to the market"
3. I was on a personal call(even though it was business related)
I've been looking for jobs ever since and so far, no luck with anything. I've applied for unemploymen too, though I'm not relying on them. |
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| Recap of Fanime2009 |
[May. 28th, 2009|10:44 am] |
I ran into several Hitman reborn characters and came across some Xanxus cosplayers and mine was almost on the dot except for the fact I did not have knee high boots, a thicker wig and make up for scar and eye brows, however my costume was the top Xanxus costume. Thank you Chibica for taking the time to design the costume. I've seen a few people there like tidus, thefadingdream and whiteroseoni. The convention was great overall. I missed the group gathering for the katekyo hitman reborn pic. I'll probably make it up for anime expo. |
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| Fanime con 2009 |
[May. 20th, 2009|08:20 am] |
I'll be going this year and I'm going to cosplay as Xanxus from katekyo Hitman Reborn, which is a great anime series and recomended by dsgujral. My friend Jessica decided to encorage me to get the costume and it turned out great! Looking foward to seeing freinds I only get to see once a year. |
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| Venting |
[May. 12th, 2009|09:09 am] |
Slowly getting sick of my douche manager Tony Anderson. |
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| Seriously |
[Apr. 26th, 2009|11:22 am] |
On Sunday at 2:38am, guest Ghulam Helman walked in. Guest did not have reservation and wanted me to give him the weekend rate of $71 dollars. Guest claims that Randy has ALWAYS given him the weekend rate even though it will be Sunday. Guest was very persistent and kept asking me to give him the rate of $71 dollars. After I told him I can't and showed him the computer screen of the rate being $149 dollars, he said I could give him the rate or he would speak to the president of the western regional because he knows him very well. Guest threaten me that since I did not give him the rate, he was going to complain since I did not "offer" the weekend rate.
Lets see where this goes. |
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| New phone |
[Mar. 30th, 2009|05:04 pm] |
I received my phone earlier than expected. Works great. I had some ups and downs last week but that never changes. I'll be attending Fanime con 2009. |
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| Temporary defective phone |
[Mar. 25th, 2009|04:19 pm] |
On Monday, I spilled soda on my phone by accident. The phone still works but the screen does not. For some of you, I have your number memorized. At&t is sending me a Samsung A737 phone(I have a Sony ericsson W50 and discontinued)which is a downgrade and not the same brand. It will take up to a week to get the right phone. Overall, everything else is ok. |
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